Katie Miller
I am so sorry about your loss! I know exactly how you feel. We just lost our baby girl while I was 38 weeks pregnant on March 15th, 2009. It was the worst ever and SO tragic. She was perfect in every way and her little heart just stopped for no reason. I remember my husband and I holding her after she was born and couldn't believe that this happened. When I saw her name in the obituaries and was even more upset because she was surrounded by much older people that lived long lives. I couldn't understand why my little girl couldn't outlive me! We attended Kindermourn here in Charlotte, which I HIGHLY recommend for you AND your husband. Besides our toddler that has helped us smile and get through this, Kindermourn was priceless to us. We met 3 other couples that went through a very similar situation as us and you as well, it made us feel like we weren't out of the ordinary. There is nothing that will make this easier except time. I just had thank you notes made that have a cross at the top with her name below the cross and then my favorite quote at the bottom of the card. It says, "Each new life, no matter how fragile or brief, forever changes the world." Our babies have forever changed our lives and will be the most powerful children we have ever met. For some reason, God wanted us to make little angels for him. I feel the same pain you feel and cry the same tears. As I read your blog it was like I wrote it. Please contact me if you ever want to talk or write. I am right there with you. Talking to others that have been through this was the only thing that helped us. Hang in there, cry, laugh with your other children, and pray to your little Noah. He is listening...